Shit happened with love

I was in a situation. I felt trapped. I hated waking up every day to this. It really sucked. Sucked hard. And, I choose love.

I remembered something that Marianne Williamson said from A Course In Miracles which led me to make a very conscious decision to shift my perspective. As long as I was here, I was going to show up. I was going to be the best version of myself. I was going to be the light. I would do whatever it takes.

Then, shit happened.

Yes, shit.

I was laid off from my job.

The exact job I had decided to show up for, even though I couldn’t stand to be there.

I was in the face of something that was about to shake my world (royally) and my inner guide started to smile knowingly. One of those really cheeky smiles.

It was a bizarre moment because my ego (Voldemort) was saying, “Oh no, the worst has happened, you are never going to figure this out, you’ve been rejected again, your worst fear has come to life, you suck, and on and on…”.  And then on the flip side, my inner guide was saying, “Our dream has come true, we are finally free, this is fantastic! Wow, we are powerful and worthy and the universe heard our call!

Have YOU ever been somewhere like that?

The moments that followed, two days to be exact, were a blur. I felt ungrounded, unstable, and foggy. I didn’t know what was up and what was down. I kept replaying that moment in my head to remind myself of what happened because I somehow thought that if I didn’t, I would forget it. There’s no way one forgets something like losing a full-time job.

Damage control. I started booking appointments with my counselor, my acupuncturist, my RMT, my soul sisters in the hopes of catching myself because I felt like I was falling endlessly from a building. I didn’t want to find out what happened if I hit the ground.

A couple of days in, I really started to feel supported. I felt like my inner guide was right (she always is) about my dream coming true. I had finally learned all I needed to in that job. My heart was calling for something greater, and I couldn’t do it there.

What I learned above everything, outside of knowing that everything happens FOR us, is that when our world is shaken, whether it’s a job, a relationship, or whatever else, is that there will be good days and bad days. When we go through a transition or shift, our main goal should be managing our energy with love. If that means letting ourselves be sad, scared, angry, then so be it. Let the emotions come and let them release. When we feel happy, joyous, and free, let that be exactly what it is. Enjoy those moments without downplaying them. Sometimes we’ll start to feel better, and then all of a sudden we feel bad or scared again – AND THAT IS OKAY. Everything about this process is okay. This is where we grow. This is where we expand. This is where we practice self-love. This is where miracles happen.

In every moment I strive to choose love. It’s simple, but not easy.